i got a stomach bug. and been hating every minute of it so far. i had a pretty traumatic experience last night in the water closet and i don't think i will be eating certain foods before a while.
the only thing i am feeling in my body right now is pain; sore bones and muscles. what i do not feel but KNOW for sure in my heart is that my heavenly Father is looking after me. i emphasised "know"on purpose because most days i can't "FEEL" his love - for various reasons - but if i remember his word i will know that he is there, looking after me despite my momentary lack of feeling it. this is something that means a lot to me, especially as someone who tends to experience a lot of those "up and down" vibes to remember what i know, not just trust in what i feel or don't feel. getting the balance right is another story.
but tonight, tonight Daddy did something very special to remind me of it. i was lying in bed trying to get some sleep when i looked up and through the window could see a little thingy in the sky....it was shiny and pretty and for a second i thought it might be a star. then i thought it must be a plane as you hardly see any stars now in the city! especially not at such an early time of day (i think it was around 6 or 7pm). so i stared at it for a while to see if it would go away but it didn't! :) it definitely was a star. a lone star with nothing but blue sky surrounding it. i believe it was placed there for a reason...maybe not just for me, maybe someone else saw it too:) but i thought, "Yeah. He's got that star in his hand. He knows its name. He's in control." :)
then i had to stop staring because i started to see double.
phoned work and asked for the day off tomorrow. less money but i guess getting some rest is more important at the moment.
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